Saturday, December 12, 2009

It was a bad night.

You know what the worst sound in the whole world is?

Hearing your own mother screaming in agony.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Thoughts of a Reject

Why am I so ugly?
What did I do wrong?
What did I say?
What did I do?

Do I exude some putrid odor?
Is there something wrong with my face?
Am I fat?

I need to lose weight.
I need to stop eating.
I need to go on a diet.
I need to work out.

I NEED TO STOP THINKING.

Maybe...
He's sick.
Or away from home.
Or his internet broke down.
Or he got in a car accident.
Or maybe he works late shifts now.
Or he went on a trip and got stranded on a desert island and is waiting for me to come rescue him with a helicopter where we'll fall so far in love and never leave each other.

Maybe...
He just doesn't want to talk to me.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I love you.

Dear Mom,
I love you

You keep saying you're getting too old for anything
And you're at such an amazing age. You're 60.

But you have the surgery scheduled for next year.
And you just got hearing aids.
And every time I hug you, everything seems to hurt.

And I can tell,
Day by day,
Week by week
You're getting weaker and weaker.

And....
I just don't want you to go yet.

So I just want to say.
I love you. Alot.
Please stay longer.

Love Kristian

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Two Perspectives

Dear God,

Please make me pretty
I know you made me, me
But sometimes,

I wish I looked like the guy on T.V.
Instead of having a PhD in philosophy.

If I were beautiful and dumb,
At least then I wouldn't be smart enough to care.

But I guess this is the life I lead
And I should be content with what you've given me

So thank you God.
Amen

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Dear God,

Please make me smart
I know you made me, me
But sometimes,

I wish I were smarter than a fifth grader
Instead of on the cover of GQ and the Enquirer

If I were smart and average
At least I'd be able to understand what ever one says all the time

But I guess this is the life I lead
And I should be content with what you've given me

So thank you God.
Amen

Friday, March 6, 2009

No More

I don't know where I'm going
I just hope he'll be there
And everyday I just keep trying
To find someone who cares

The world just keeps on saying
"You'll never find your true love"
And why does everyone keep saying
"You're too young to be in love"

But I know, I know
Where I want to go
Where I want to be
And I know, I know
Where I want to go
Where I want to be

Everyday I am dreaming
Of what my life will be
Like a house with a white picket fence that I've
Only heard of in stories

A kid and a dog in the park playing
Across from where we live
But then I wake up and realize
I've slept in an hour again

I know, I know
Where I want to go
Where I want to be
I know, I know
Where I want to go
Where I want to be

I just want to be in love
No more shattered pieces
No more crying faces
I just want to be in love
Have someone to hold you
Have someone to want you
I just want to be in love

Cause I'm tired of waiting for you.

I know, I know
That it may be naive
That I might be young
But I know, I know
Where I want to go
Where I want to be




This is an unfinished work.
There is still stuff I would like to add, and eventually I'm going to record it.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Life goes on

We run around
In fields of green, yellows and blues.
She's crazy they say
But they don't understand
You're just happy
And life goes on

We walk to school early
With gray skies, dark clouds and raindrops
She's dull they say
But they don't understand
It's just routine
And life goes on

We lie on the floor
When the sunken cheeks show,the closed eyes watch and hands cover their heart.
She's sad they say
But they don't understand
How broken she is inside

But life goes on

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Untitled

Why can't you understand?

All I want is to be loved.
But alas, I have never truely been.

I don't try.
No.
I don't want.

To go.

To go.

From arm to arm.
From bed to bed.

Because you must understand.

This is the only love I know.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

A Life Complete

It's frigid outside
The sky's a grey hue
Yet even in this winter
I'm thinking of you
Here comes the rain
Flooding in
Yet even in my chaos
I'm thinking of you

Cause you
Are what I need
My life is complete
My life is complete
You're what I need

Here come the clouds
Dangle them over me
I won't go astray cause of darkness
I'm hanging in
Generate a storm
Bring it to me
I won't be shaken
I will not subside

Cause you
Are what I need
My life is complete
My life is complete

I am am no longer weak
I am no longer gullible
I refuse to let the enemy triumph over me
Cause it is finished
It is finished

Here comes the sun
Shining on me
Penetrating within
For all to see





If you guys want to see a video of me singing it, send me your youtube account, cause it is a private video.